ANGST

Why is that you can wish and wish for something and you never get it even though it knows you want it and it teases you with it, and then years later when everything is going perfect without it, the thing that you always wished for comes back into your life and wants to give you what you always wanted and now there is no way you could ever have it but you want it sooooooooo bad and it really has what you wanted and it tells you that it has it and you CANNOT HAVE IT, but it is so good and you've wanted it for so long? WHY? WWWWWHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYY?